Clara.

2011-02-02T06:24:00.000-08:00

Just bored.

I am a male.

I am a girl.

I am shorter than 5’4.

I think I’m ugly sometimes.

I have many scars.

I tan easily.

I wish my hair was a different color!!!

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.

I have a tattoo.

I am self-conscious about my appearance.

I have/I’ve had braces.

I wear glasses.

I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

I have more than 2 piercings.

I have (had) piercing in places besides my ears.

I have freckles.

I’ve sworn at my parents.

I’ve run away from home.

I’ve been kicked out of the house.

I have a sibling less than one year old.

I want to have kids someday.

I’ve lost a child.

I’m in school.

I have a job.

I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.

I almost always do/did my homework.

I've missed a week or more of school.

I failed more than 1 class last year.

I’ve stolen something from a job.

I’ve slipped out an “lol” in a spoken conversation.

Disney movies still make me cry.

I've peed from laughing.

I’ve snorted while laughing.

I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.

I’ve glued my hand to something.

I’ve had my pants rip in public.

I was born with a disease/impairment.

I’ve gotten stitches/staples.

I’ve broken a bone.

I’ve had my tonsils removed.

I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.

I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.

I had a serious surgery.

I’ve had chicken pox.

I’ve had measles.

I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.

I've been on a plane.

I’ve been to Canada.

I’ve been to Mexico

I’ve been to Niagara Falls.

I've been to Japan.

I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

I've been to Europe.

I’ve seen a shooting star.

I’ve wished on a shooting star.

I’ve seen a meteor shower.

I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.

I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.

I’ve been to a casino.

I’ve been skydiving.

I’ve gone skinny dipping.

I’ve played spin the bottle.

I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

I’ve crashed a car.

I’ve been skiing.

I’ve been in a play.

I’ve met someone in person from Facebook.

I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.

I’ve seen the Northern lights.

I’ve sat on a roof top at night.

I’ve played chicken.

I’ve played a prank on someone.

I’ve ridden in a taxi.

I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

I’ve eaten sushi.

I’ve been snowboarding.

I’m single.

I’m in a relationship.

I’m engaged.

I’m married.

I’ve gone on a blind date. (someone you meet for the first time when you have a date with them)

I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper.

I miss someone right now.

I have a fear of abandonment.

I’ve gotten divorced.

I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.

I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.

I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

I am a cuddler.

I’ve been kissed in the rain.

I’ve hugged a stranger.

I have kissed a stranger.

I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.

I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t!!

I’ve sneaked out of my house.

I have lied to my parents about where I am.

I am keeping a secret from the world.

I’ve cheated while playing a game.

I’ve cheated on a test.

I’ve run a red light.

I’ve been suspended from school.

I’ve witnessed a crime.

I’ve been in a fist fight.

I’ve been arrested.

I’ve consumed alcohol.

I regularly drink.

I’ve passed out from drinking

I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.

I’ve smoked weed

I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.

I’ve eaten shrooms.

I’ve popped E.

I’ve inhaled Nitrous.

I’ve done hard drugs.

I have cough drops when I’m not sick.

I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.

I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.

I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.

I shut others out when I’m depressed.

I take anti-depressants.

I have been anorexic or bulimic.

I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it!

I’ve hurt myself on purpose.

I’m afraid of dying.

I’ve woken up crying.

I hate funerals.

I’ve seen someone dying.

Someone close to me has committed suicide.

I’ve planned my own suicide

I’ve attempted suicide.

I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

I own over 5 rap CDs.

I own an iPod or MP3 player.

I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.

I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.

I own something from Hot Topic.

I own something from Pac Sun.

I collect comic books.

Uh uh

2011-01-05T23:16:00.000-08:00

I've a lot on my mind..

xmas 2010

2010-12-26T00:14:00.000-08:00

I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus.

Did I said this year's Christmas 2010 is the best!!!! How I wish everyday

was Christmas and Christmas Eve! Hahahaha No I am not saying those

words like "I had a great time partaying and get so drunk whatever shit"

to show everybody how forced or to grab attention type 'happiness'

portrayed.

Yesterday I had a house gathering for my family and my mom's friends.

Me and my cousin were the game organisers, we thought our games

were pretty lame like Pictionary, Taboo and Bingo. BUT! Everyone joined

in eventhough they don't know each other kids adults so I am safe to say

it is pretty successful! And I got the 'Best Dressed' award, I don't even

know why....I guess they were being kind and I am the host. Hahahaha!

And we sang "We Wish You A Merry X'mas" to cut the logcakes. Quite funny.

I have the coolest family in the world!

Okay on X'mas eve was Monsters celebration. I think it is the best we've had.

hahahahaha the decorations was spot on despite all from Daiso and we

played drinking games. We got Bacon and cakes thanks to Sy's bro! :)

And Zombie pre-xmas celebration was very good too! Thanks to arron's mom

for the six pizzas we ordered too many! HAHA I think the best part was singing

songs. I haven watched the videos yet but S told me it is damn funny. Oh we

watched Xmen the movie I don't even know why. LOL

A very summarised post..lazy! Thanks for all the presents from every kind soul!

And I think I just got happier right now. Hehehehe :)

Don't Quit

2010-12-22T02:06:00.000-08:00

'Don't Quit'

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest , if you must but don't you quit.

Often the goal is nearer than,

It seems to a faint and falthering man.

Often the struggler has given up,

When he might have captured the victor's cup.

And he learned too late when the night slipped down,

How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out.

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.

And you never can tell how close you are,

It may be near when it seems so far,

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit

It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

2010-12-14T23:04:00.000-08:00

Blown away

2010-11-27T06:13:00.000-08:00

This gives me goosebumps.

Blown away totally.

2010-11-23T19:18:00.000-08:00

Heart Vacancy.

I hear your heart cry for love,
But you won't let me make it right.
You were hurt, but I decided,
That you were worth the fight.
Every night, you lock up,
You won't let me come inside.
But the look in your eyes,
As I can turn the tide.

In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
I can tell you can fit one more.
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
I don't care who was there before.

I hear your heart call for love,
Then you act like there's no room.
Room for me, or anyone,
"Don't disturb" is all I see.
Close the door, turn the key,
On everything that we could be.
If loneliness would move out,
I'd fill the vacancy.
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart.

2010-11-08T22:18:00.000-08:00

AN UPDATE (best viewed in Google Chrome)

2010-11-02T16:40:00.000-07:00

I read the newspaper yesterday shivering. It doesn't seems real.

I have never thought you would be on the front page of the new

paper at least not in this way. I bought the new paper today and

I was enraged by the hooligans, it might not have been your fault.

You just happened to be at the wrong place and the wrong time.

All the thoughts and memories of you suddenly come back to me

even the slightest one. I remembered my mom was suspicious about

our relationship and I argued with her over you but you told me to get

along with her and sometimes you called my house phone to reach me

and would get scolded. Haha. And your dad was very strict with you

maybe this was why you were rebellious in the past. I cannot imagine

how your parents and your sister are feeling right now, no words can

describe how devastated they are with your loss.

I also remembered we used to talk about almost everything just me and

you sitting face to face and nothing else. I don't know how we do that

It felt so unreal yet pure. We didn't have to do all the fancy things to

keep us together just beside each other. And there was once I got scolded

by my senior because we were distracting them from the training Haha

I can't go back to change the fact that we were once together and all the

events which happened although it may seems so vague or somehow

insignificant to many. I would keep all the memories, your smile, your laugh,

your jokes within my heart and carry on with life.I hardly see you getting

upset except during our arguments and when we broke up. I thank you for

being a part of my life and for everything during the short-lived "romance",

and that I once really loved you -I remembered I said these in a two-pages

long message after which. We didn't keep in contact even though we tried

but looking back now somehow I wish we did. Yeah, I am a human I admit only

to think of you now after the tragic incident happened. I am sorry.

I hope you would rest in peace please and not seek revenge. Let justice

serve it's purpose to them. So please please rest in peace. The next time I

look at your video and pictures, I would smile with tears in my eyes as I

know you are somewhere safe and watching over those you love :')

I guess I needed a space to write all of these and also to keep the

thoughts of you that are constantly in my mind out for good because it's

suffocating me and I cannot help it. I keep asking why is it you!? So many

people were there but why is it you!? Now I think it is because

'the person up there' had bigger plans for you than you had for yourself :')

So Goodbye D.

(Playing : Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional)

your once fave song.

Gosh so true

2010-09-09T01:55:00.000-07:00

Life is unfair.
You put someone first who puts you second.
You study your ass off for a final only to get a B in the
class when you deserved an A.You give 110% to
someone in a relationship when they only give 40%.
You’re there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they
need it the most & the next day they don’t pick up
their phone.You give something your all & sometimes
get little to nothing back.You care so much about
someone who doesn’t care enough about you to say
hi once in a while.You give someone your time & they
give you “sorry, I’m busy”. It seems like you’re giving
everyone everything & they’re just walking away with it.

This is too damn true.

2010-09-03T01:50:00.000-07:00

Sorry been neglecting this place and if there are still people

here to check this shithole out.....HAHAHAHHAA

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150254634120398&ref=mf

CLICK THIS LINK!!! This have got to be the cutest dog!!!

Check the pictures out!

FUCKING CUTE!!! I think one day Imma cut that hairstyle for my Red.

Zombie

2010-07-29T00:32:00.000-07:00

Its alluring.

Secrets.

2010-07-25T16:15:00.000-07:00

One Republic - Secrets

Amazing song, amazing movie.
Amazing band and with my favourite instrument.
What more can I say.

2010-07-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

Young Artists For Haiti.

Despicable Me

2010-07-13T23:16:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow tomorrow! :D This is actually a gif file but I cannot
upload it! Its really cute!

2010-07-09T00:14:00.000-07:00

I am not for Spain but I think this picture is nice.

Need you now

2010-07-01T23:19:00.000-07:00

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

This is a must listen!!!
I think people need to listen to underrated music like TDCC more
instead of Korean songs.
Their new video only has 307views!?!?!

2010-06-24T03:02:00.000-07:00

Inner thoughts.

I've been wondering what would happen if I am still in nyp
doing design. No, I am not regretting. Theres a difference
between having regrets and thinking about it. I still kinda like design
not that my current course is not good. But who says one should
solely stick to the path that you're studying, rightttttttttt.
Walau, my violin. So many things I really wanna accomplish.
Not getting young alr. Why am I still at this phase. I shld be so over it
and start on my work. Casestudies & Reports...................................
really hate those motherfuckers keep updating it on their fb or msn or
whatever fuck. Since first week of holidays, they keep talking abt it and
nothing done.Maybe got uh no need keep saying right. Kay I will finish
them by the deadlines. You dont have to whine since first day of holidays
to get it done. Really, one sentence.
KUA LIAO MA DULAN.

The Fray - Heartless

2010-06-23T03:10:00.000-07:00

The video is nice!

Details in the fabric

2010-06-20T16:25:00.000-07:00

Favourite. No doubt

Iwatch

2010-06-17T16:05:00.000-07:00

So many people have changed their phones.
Blackberry, HTC, samsung something, iphone, iphone, iphone,
iphone, iphone.....Motorola. I think i might buy this,

Too bad, its only a concept.

twitter

2010-06-05T13:04:00.000-07:00

Where is the love.

2010-06-02T23:02:00.000-07:00

Missed it.

Pierrot le fou

2010-05-18T22:46:00.000-07:00

"I never told you I’d love you all my life.
Oh my love, you never swore to adore me all your life.
We never made promises like that, knowing me knowing you.
We never thought we ever would be caught by love fickle as we were.
And yet, and yet, step by step, without a word between us, bit by bit,
feelings slipped between our merry mingle bodies and words of love
rose to our naked lips. Bit by bit lots of words of love began to mingle
gently with our kisses. How many words of love? I never would have
thought I’d always want you. Oh my love, we never would have thought
we two could live together and not get bored. Wake up every morning
and be just as surprised to be just as happy in the same bed,
desire nothing more than that oh so banal pleasure of feeling
so good to be together. And yet, and yet, step by step without
a word between us, bit by bit our feelings bound us tight in spite
of ourselves, bound us tight forever. Feelings stronger than any
words of love known or unknown. Feelings so wild and so strong.
Feelings we never thought were possible before.
Don’t ever promise to adore me all your life.
Let’s not make promises like that knowing me knowing you.
Let’s keep the feeling that this love of ours,
this love of ours, will be short and sweet."

Hey Soul Sister

2010-05-16T14:32:00.000-07:00

Your lipstick stains
On the front lobe of my left-side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you
And so I went and let you
Blow my mind

Your sweet moonbeam
The smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided
You're the one I have decided
Who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister
Ain't that mister mister
On the radio, stereo
The way you move ain't fair, you know

Hey soul sister
I don't wanna miss a single thing you do
Tonight

Shawty

2010-04-28T07:19:00.000-07:00

You know who shawty is?
Shawty Is A Remedy~~

Hahahahahahaha.

Beyond!

2010-04-13T04:32:00.000-07:00

今天我　寒夜裡看雪飄過　
懷著冷卻了的心窩飄遠方　
風雨裡追趕　霧裡分不清影蹤　
天空海闊你與我　可會變 (誰沒在變)

多少次　迎著冷眼與嘲笑
從沒有放棄過心中的理想
一剎那恍惚　若有所失的感覺
不知不覺已變淡　心裡愛 (誰明白我)

原諒我這一生不羈放縱愛自由　
也會怕有一天會跌到
背棄了理想　誰人都可以　
那會怕有一天只你共我

Siao de lei

2010-03-27T23:51:00.000-07:00

Oh Oh Oh Crazy~

This is a girl who enters the Guinness World Records for having
the biggest Pokemon collection in the world! Too much, this is too
much! Hahaha

I came across this phase ; work like you don't need the money.
Gei siao! If don't need then work for what. You tell me. This also
reminds me that tomorrow I got work. Then I need to pack my stuff
and I am really bad at it.

Once

2010-03-25T23:13:00.000-07:00

I want to watch the movie, Once!
Even Hayyyyley is re-watching it, so it must be nice.
But I don't know where to watch it.

Out and about.

2010-03-23T01:41:00.000-07:00

Today went out and feel so pek chek. You know, pekchek.
My brother sick, my mother sick. Now I falling sick when I
just recover. Then my shoes lost, cb. I hope you cannot fit that
shoes, or hopefully break your leg if I ever find you. Whatelse,
want to eat the famous Katong Prawn mee. Then close you know!
WALAU. Kay my throat fucking hurts, I cannot talk uh. Then kuek
got rashes, but she so fucking funny. Made our day sia :D
Leong at batam I think giving birth there. Come back quick lei!

So long~

2010-03-18T02:42:00.000-07:00

Oh, today is a happy day!
Mom made fruit jelly for me.
So loved.
Haven seen her for a week.
When I wake up, she go work. When I come back, she's asleep.
We have been communicating on the whiteboard.
Hahahahaha

Oh Westlife has the best love songs ever, hands down!

You give me strength, you give me hope.
You give me someone to love someone to hold.
When I'm in your arms, I need you to know.
I've never been, I've never been this close.
Close enough to see its true,
close enough to trust in you.
Closer now than any words can say.

Oh well

2010-03-17T01:46:00.000-07:00

Must Watch!

Whip It
Diary of A Wimpy Kid
Once
Lost In Translation

Living life, loving it~

2010-03-09T05:08:00.000-08:00

Hi Hayley~

ParaMania

2010-03-06T21:46:00.000-08:00

Honestly, can you believe
they(paramore)crossed the world while it's sleeping!

"at the airport. never had so much fun in 3 days in my whole life.crazy&insane. leaving NZ in about 20 minutes. next stop, SINGAPORE!!!"

Hayley Williams

\m/

Inorganic and Organic Chem

2010-02-27T13:26:00.000-08:00

Iochem OH dear Iochem,

please let me conquer you for the first and last time.
I won't bother you next year anymore :(
But first I need to sleep naooooo!

Stuck in my head.

2010-02-26T18:43:00.000-08:00

Kina Grannis - Valentine

(Y)!

Hmm

2010-02-23T10:28:00.000-08:00

Woke up to hear two shocking news....

Happy

2010-02-22T03:46:00.000-08:00

Someone once told me that you have to choose.
What you win or lose, you can't have everything.
Don't you take chances, you might feel the pain.
Don't you love in vain 'cause love won't set you free.
I could stand by the side and watch this life pass me by.
So unhappy, but safe as could be.

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground.
I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound.
Don't care about all the pain in front of me.
Cause I'm just trying to be happy.
Just wanna be happy.

Almost Alice

2010-02-20T16:41:00.000-08:00

Almost Alice.

Avril's new single for the movie, 'Alice in Wonderland' (:

Today was a fairytale.

2010-02-17T18:38:00.000-08:00

I LOVE CNY!

I love this year's Chinese New Year alot,
as contradicting to many others. Reasons!
This is the only time of the year,

1. Get to hold so much money on hand especially $2 notes!
You can count them again & again. WEEEEEEEEEE

2. Gambled for 3 days straight until the wee hours without
getting caught by police.

3. Eating so many times of steamboat and
I am having it today for dinner!

4. Can eat bak kwa, pineapple tarts, pistachio cookies
and everything until siao

5. Get to meet your relatives and friends after a long time.
But I didn't get to meet feli & Wendi

6. Watched Valentine's Day on Valentine's Day/CNY

Yay! All in all, I shall continue to love cny and study for exams.

Mons.

2010-02-12T13:16:00.000-08:00

Mons,

This tuesday go jaslyn house for steamboat.
We go get the ingredients to prepare.
Tell me if you guys can make it.

Bu hao yi si, meet up during holidays!

(y)

2010-02-08T00:26:00.000-08:00

Oh~Oh~ Oh~(Mylove)

1)I got a bleeding pinky.
2) Not hype for Chinese New Year
3) Chem's a bitch
4) Clear projectssss
5) I wanna eat steamboat! Jas!
6) Josh from paramore won't be coming to s'pore for
the concert. Whathesai! >:(
7) Goodluck to those having exams.

Winner!

2010-02-03T01:51:00.000-08:00

GONG XI GONG XI

:D :D :D

lifeisdesigned.

2010-01-27T17:40:00.000-08:00

Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay

I can't wait for 28th January! Oh it's tomorrow baybeh!

Because my Skins Season 4, yes 4!!! is on tomorrow!

But not in singapore, so hopefully someone will upload.

And the movie: Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus will also be out!

I've been wanting to watch since last year.

There's Jude Law and Johnny Dep.

I also wanna watch the dog show, Hachiko? Ya..........

Randomness.

2010-01-26T21:52:00.000-08:00

So cute, when I update my status.
Then my facebook badge at the side of my page will also change.
Yah I just realised it today.

2010-01-19T00:35:00.000-08:00

You can erase someone from your mind.
Getting them out of your heart is just another story.

The wailin' Jennys - Begin

2010-01-11T23:40:00.000-08:00

LISTEN!

SUPER AWESOME SONG AND VOCALS!!

Lyrics:

Hey, maybe the time
Just wasn't right to hang on
When are you gonna learn
Sometimes things turn instead of turn out
Hey, when are you gonna stand
Stop looking over your shoulder
Me, with a head full of words
And not one useful expression
Hey, let go
We, with holes in our hearts
Were whole at the start
Our story began
We film ourselves 'til the end
Try to suspend our lives in the dark
Hey, when are you gonna stand
Stop looking over your shoulder
See, there's a sun in the sky
And a moon that will take us til morning
When are you gonna stand
Stop and begin this moment
Hey, let go
Let go (will we be the ones to understand?)

Humans are funny.

2010-01-09T01:33:00.000-08:00

What is a change?
Be it good or bad,
change is a process that takes place over a period of time.
It is not the final or starting product.
People who say they cannot change their character
and whatsoever/they are used to it are
fucking stupid. It's all up to you.
Nobody changes over the night,thats just a facade.
If you put your mind and heart to it, everything is possible.
What is impossible??? It is I.M.POSSIBLE.
I really hope one day the whole world will think along my
point of view and share the same thinking! I've been thinking
so much for others, not for myself. Too many senseless people but
seriously I can't be bothered. Humans are funny creature,really.
So funny that I should continue doing my bio report../

Freaking sad.

2010-01-04T20:46:00.000-08:00

BACK TO SCHOOL.

I feel so useless these few days.
2010 doesnt seems to start in a nice way.
But its okay. I need to start thinking and planning
ahead and looking far into the future which I am
always afraid of doing so. I don't know what lies
ahead, I dont wana know.
Just like what I've predicted about today,
just to need to get some gettig used to.
I don't think I was sensitive.We are just different.

Hi.

2009-12-22T16:03:00.000-08:00

Hello.
Its 8.04am now and I am still awake. \m/
Bye

Since I've nothing to do..........
waiting for someone to wake up.
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hi this is shamaine and clara won't let me sleep!

Life is beautiful

2009-12-21T04:25:00.000-08:00

Life is beautiful.
We live until we die.

When you run into my arms,
we steal a perfect moment
Let the monsters see you smile.
Let them see you smiling.

Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?
Life is beautiful
But it's complicated.
We barely make it,
we don't need to understand.
There are miracles, miracles.
Yeah, life is beautiful.

Our hearts,
they beat and break.
When you run away from harm,
will you run back into my arms?
Like you did when you were young.
Will you come back to me?

Stand where you are,we let all these moments pass us by.

It's amazing where I'm standing.
There's a lot that we can give.
This is ours just for the moment.
There's a lot that we can can give.

L()ve

2009-12-20T01:54:00.000-08:00

We want the airwaves back...

No one falls in love by choice, its by chance.
No one stays in love by chance, its by work.
And no one falls out of love by chance, its by choice.

Limp Bizkit - Hotdog

2009-12-13T02:18:00.000-08:00

Listen up!Listen up!
Here we go(Here we go)
It's a fucked up world
A fucked up place
Everybody's judged by their fucked up face.
Fucked up dreams. Fucked up life.
A fucked up kid with a fucked up knife.
Fucked up moms and fucked up dads.
Fucked up cop with a fucked up badge.
Fucked up job with fucked up pay and a fucked up boss,is a fucked up day.
Fucked up press and fucked up lies.
Lethal's in the back with the fucked up eyes.
(Hey)(It's on)
Everybody knows it's on!
(Hey)(It's on)
Everybody knows it's on!
Ain't it a shame that you can't say fuck?
Fuck's just a word and it's all fucked up!
Like a fucked up punk with a fucked up mouth and nine inch nails.
Get knocked the fuck out!
Fucked up AIDS from fucked up sex.
Fake assed titties on a fucked up chest.
We're all fucked up so whatcha wanna do?
With fucked up me and fucked up you.

Ain't life a bitch?
A fucked up ditch
Fucked up sore with a fucked up stitch
A fucked up head is a fucked up shame
Swingin' on my nuts is a fucked up game
Jealousy filling up a fucked up mind
It's real fucked up like a fucked up crime
If I say fuck, two more times.
That's forty six fucks in this fucked up rhyme!

Define

2009-12-10T02:59:00.000-08:00

Define what's Love.
Define what's friendship,
define what it takes to destroy both of them.

I've gained nothing but lose alot of people along
18 years of my life. Thank you for stepping in, leaving
a print and making a difference, be it good or bad. (:

Thoughts

2009-12-06T13:53:00.000-08:00

Learn to be contented.
I think a lot of people need to do that..

Beijing.

2009-11-28T00:41:00.000-08:00

SY,
Bon Voyage, you are on the plane already.
Enjoy your Beijing trip and don't think so much!
Please don't get detain in that country cause no one
will go there and save you. Hahaha I cant go, I might
get beheaded. Woooooooo so excited for you to come
back after one week. LOL :)

I dont know.

2009-11-24T22:42:00.000-08:00

I got nothing to blog.
Actually I do, but...I don't know.

FLB

2009-11-24T14:00:00.000-08:00

You can never tell what people are thinking and feeling
unless they tell you, and usually they lie.
You ask them , ‘Whats wrong?’ and they say ‘Nothing’.
You accept this because it’s easier than digging for the truth.
People smile when they want to cry, they laugh when
they want to scream and shout.
They pretend like nothing is wrong because they don’t
want to face the truth.
Things aren’t always rainbows and butterflies,
sometimes you gotta scream and cry your anger and
sadness to the world, because you can only hold it in
for so long before something in you snaps.

YEAH

Welcome ipod to my arms

2009-11-14T02:17:00.000-08:00

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Thanks Shamaine for helping me to order the red Ipod!
And for the nice box and very sad card!
(Kay, she made me thank her here)

Hahahahhaha Thank you, you are awesome and so am I.
XOXO

Normal.

2009-11-12T01:18:00.000-08:00

“Anyone can easily walk away from somebody else.
Nobody is forced to stay; we all have choices.
The real test is if someone would rather stay with you,
even though walking away could be so much easier.”

My heart

2009-11-07T12:46:00.000-08:00

MUST WATCH!!!

\m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/ \m/

this heart, it beats, beats for only you.

story

2009-10-27T01:56:00.000-07:00

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage.
They were a loving couple and the boy was the gem of their eyes.
When the boy was around two years old, one morning the
husband saw a medicine bottle open.He was late for work at
the office so he asked his wife to cap the bottle and keep it in
the cupboard. His wife, preoccupied in the kitchen totally forgot
the matter. The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle
fascinated by its color and drank it all. It happened to be a
poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages.
When the child collapsed the mother hurried him to the hospital,
where he died.The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to
face her husband. When the distraught father came to the hospital
and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just five words.

QUESTIONS : 1. What were the five words?
2. What is the implication of this story?

ANSWER :The husband just said 'I am with you Darling'

The husband's totally unexpected reaction is a proactive behavior.
The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life.
There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides,
if only he had taken time to keep the bottle away,
this would not have happened. No one is to be blamed.
She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that
moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband.
That is what he gave her. If everyone can look at life with this
kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.
'A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step'.
Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness,
and fears. And you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

MORAL OF THE STORY :
Sometimes we spend time in asking who is responsible or
whom to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the
people we know. By this way we miss out something called Life.
Many of times, we are too focused in blaming others, and often
neglect other peoples feelings.

IGNTSBICBB

2009-10-26T00:36:00.000-07:00

From GEMS,
choose an animal to describe about yourself.
Is there any animal that describes awkwardness?
Cause I am! A.W.K.W.A.R.D

Sometimes we put up walls
not to keep people out
But to see who cares enough
to knock em down
Omg So true manz

Kay, I would like to dedicate this part of my post to
Grace, stay strong. Hes screwed. Shes fucked.
They are shingz. We'll be there for you. Plays
Bon Jovi - I'll be there for you in the background.
What doesnt kills you, only makes you stronger!
Don't succumb to their/his/her wish! No matter what
decision you made, right or wrong. You've our back okay.
Just don't do silly things cause you're worth more than their
arses, combined. :)

So describe me.

2009-10-21T22:56:00.000-07:00

I am not confident.
I know I am smart, but not in the ways that count.
I read people much better than books but I never
have the words to explain my findings.
I'm only as funny as I feel.
And I do not think I'm pretty.
I sometimes walk with my head down.
My posture is terrible.
I think horrible things about people and I let
my emotions get the best of me.
I'm really not as nice as I'd like to be,
or as innocent as you'd think I am.
I am a perfectionist.
Yet I am a contradiction to everything I want to stand for.
I am really no good at all, on my own.
But I am analytical with myself.
And I dont understand how anyone could ever be cocky
or proud when they are aware of all the disgusting things
that they think and do, but no one knows.
We're all broken enough to be humble.

Sup.

2009-10-12T20:40:00.000-07:00

Just came back from Malaysia, truly asiaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Right. Eat and Eat and Eat and Eat and Eat! Lol I think
Citysquare is better than Jusco(?) Good buys.

And Shamaine, I just receive your postcard from
2th October! :D
And need to choose GEMS tomorrow. Not bejeweled,
it is elective. Hahaha.
And Last week of holidays! :( BOO!

9 oct 2009

2009-10-08T00:58:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY FELICIA KHOO!!
We had astons and TCC(Teh cork cork) without
the birthday girl! WOOOOOOOOOOO
A happy occasion.

And I hope one of your birthday wish is for Leong's
camera to recover or for her to get a new one!

2009-09-28T02:24:00.000-07:00

Success is not about fame, having alot money or a high-rank job.
Its about doing the things you love.
Its about waking up in the morning,
excitedly dashes out of the door to start the day.
Its about sleeping at night and yet smiling to yourself
because you know you have make the most out of the
day by giving your very best.
Generally, success is about love.

From the movie, Fame.
Yes, I remember the words, almost to the exact.
But it should be the same meaning (:

Next, 500Days Of Summer

No meaning.

2009-09-26T21:57:00.000-07:00

Don't meddle with her heart,
meddle with her mind.
Meddle with the things that are inside,
you don't know what you'll find.
You don't know what she hide.

No meaning.

Two is better than one.

2009-09-18T15:46:00.000-07:00

Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor swifttttt

Listen, Listen, Listen, Listen, Listen, Listen!
Love Taylor's voice.

Skins

2009-09-15T16:24:00.000-07:00

You are just wasting the world and everything in it.

The first & second season cast.

Chris, sid, maxxie, tony

Effy is a genius! :D

Maxxie!!! (click to enlarge, better resolution)

Cassie : "Do you know what hurts the most about a broken heart,

not being able to rmb what you felt before."

I am finishing the second season already, but why must

they axed the first generation of cast in s3. Upset,

but there is still effy in it so I am gonna watch.

Its a freaking nice show with lots of humour and I love

their accent though its difficult to unds what they have said.

This kick gossip girl and what 20910 show. (I know, its 90210)

Finally Up!

2009-09-09T03:10:00.000-07:00

What's Up

Finally I decided to post something here. Hahaha
I almost forget that I have this space to write any bullshit.
Kay nothing I would like to update, watch alot of movies
lately. But none to my liking, yes very sad. What's wrong
with movie-makers, they need to improvise! Kay I shall
post pictures of my dream car, I would buy it if their available
somewhere, somehow in s'pore :)

2009-09-02T02:48:00.000-07:00

From tumblr.

29thAug

2009-08-29T22:43:00.000-07:00

Happy 18th Birthday to Jin Neo Renyi!
and his mum! :D

[/edits]
Fuck, while everyone or almost everyone is watching
14players on the field chasing after ballz, I don't even know
how many people they are on both teams. Hahah! That is,
the Man Utd Vs Arsenal shit thing. I am here, feeling very
distracted! And trying my best to start on Mip like I've planned to!

12:55am

Poladroid

2009-08-25T22:12:00.000-07:00

Poladroid

A-i-r-p-o-r-t

Paramoreeeee

2009-08-23T16:58:00.000-07:00

Paramore's Ignorance Music Video!

CLICK!

I try posting the video up but it will not load so view it
at their website! \m/

Sick again.

2009-08-16T13:16:00.000-07:00

Temperamental

I am now, in a world where I have to hide my heart
and what I believe in.
But somehow,
I will show the world what's inside my heart,
and be loved for who I am.

Neither do I have the physical/academic qualities nor character.
All I have is a heart, still living, learning and loving one.
But I can't possibly dig my heart out to show all of them,
if only I could.

Sorry, being on a random note.
Sick and having instant noodle for lunch :(

09082009

2009-08-09T15:51:00.000-07:00

Goodbye, my almost lover.
Goodbye, my hopeless dreams.

Renovating my room on National Day, how memorable!
Its not perfect yet, I still want to paint it. But not today, my
dad wont be free. I would rather stay in room now than going
out, squeezing with the rest of singaporeans -
blangas, AK , AL , AB. Hahahaha you get the drift.

constant

2009-08-03T00:55:00.000-07:00

I think I shall go pack my bags now since I didnt do anything
productive, and only wasting time >:( Tomorrow shall die of fatigue
and I must must must must study APChem.

Sorry Sorry SuperJunior

2009-08-02T15:47:00.000-07:00

Sorry Sorry

These inmates are damn cool and they so owned SJ!!
You cannot tell one apart from another! Hahahaha
Singapore prisons should learn from this video, unity!

[/edits]

Hello, I am back with nothing much to do!
To my friends who are sick( SY, Leongie, Kuekuek)
TakeCare! And I love you guys, I am like bidding
goodbye to you all. Hahahaha Just now I dreamt that
I fail my CRS essay with a mark of 44! O.O
10.53pm

My Wish.

2009-07-27T20:54:00.000-07:00

My Wish.

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go.
And if you're faced with the choice and you have to choose.
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walking till you find the window.
If its cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything.

My wish for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it to.
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small.
You never need to carry more than you can hold.
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to.
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too.
Yeah, this is my wish.

Wasted

2009-07-26T00:02:00.000-07:00

W.A.S.T.E.D

I feel like fucking tattoo-ing 'Procrastination Kills' on my
forehead, so it gets inside my head. It may not be such a
bad idea. I mean definitely not on my forehead, other parts
of my body.But the tattooist might not get p-r-o-c-r-a-s....
right, I dont even know if I have spell correctly. Lol

Excited

2009-07-21T20:35:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is the Solar Eclipse day! It shall
be total darkness tomorrow, like in those movies.
I hope something exciting happens but I dont
mean anything bad.

ciao, watching 2ne1 live tv :)

Nicotine.

2009-07-20T21:03:00.000-07:00

Nickelback.

The Music Video!

love the video!

My best friend gave me the best advice -
He said each day's a gift and not a given right.
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind.
And try to take the path less traveled by.
That first step you take is the longest stride.

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late.
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

Low self-esteem

2009-07-17T00:35:00.000-07:00

The Shadow of the past

You feel very sensitive of what people think about you,
the opinions of you. sometime people tend to have
negative comments of you but you pretend that you
don't care about it.ignoring them with words like 'whatever'.
but deep inside of you feel hurt and upset. you take comments
too seriously. don't keep having the thought that people are
talking bad about you.
Really?

Dad's 52th

2009-07-13T21:41:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! <3

Daddy, thanks for everything you did for us from young until now and I meant everything, just too much things to be mentioned.
And I think we have your genes because we tend to express our
form of gratitude or what-so-ever through our actions or prefered to
write them out and not telling it directly. HEH so,

Thanks dad for tolerating my/our whinings and complains.
Thanks for getting what we want when we said we want.
(ok this applied to me more LOL)
Thanks for last year, going to each and every poly checking for
my results.
Thanks for the hard-disk.
(This is special cause u rushed out to buy it when you've a
flight in the noon)
Thanks for always treating us good food like Astons,
pungol nasi- lemak, durians(!), food @ Vivo, roast duck and more luh!
(like my dad's a chef -.-)
But you would always drive to the end of singapore to get these.
Thanks for forgiving our mistakes and lastly,
Thanks for taking care of me for 18years and my bro 21years
currently and definitely alot more years to go!

Happy Birthday awesome DAD!

Another.

2009-07-10T14:28:00.000-07:00

You wont know what you want until you are finished.

Ignorance is your new best friend

Ignorance is your new best friend

(continues to chant with me!)

Fucking Hell.

2009-07-07T20:50:00.000-07:00

I know that I have my own flaws,
but they just build my motivation.

Fucking disappointed with my results like Apchem
and AE&E. Nevermind going to do my Apchem report
properly,its worth more than the test! HAHA No time
to waste also, so many projects and reports to do.
Nevermind,exams is nearing in 8 weeks. I MUST passed
overall for AE&Eand APchem! And why so many people
having birthdays this month! TSK

Kuek

2009-07-04T08:59:00.000-07:00

KUEK'S CAFE.
@ Kaki Bukit!

Uh huh Uh huh

2009-07-01T22:23:00.000-07:00

Beautiful Dirty Rich!

I am not going to sleep tonight until I finished all the questions
of AE&E and my paper starts at 8am tomorrow. Awesomeeeee!
I cant believe my classmates so kiasu Hahahaha, no they are
so panicky or what. I dont know luh. I know nuts about
tomorrow paper. I just on my laptop to listen to songs and here
I am blogging and using the internet. Blardy Hell. Lets get started!!

JIN's big day!

2009-06-27T22:59:00.000-07:00

CONGRATS TO MR JIN. NEO RENYI. NIU NAI!(LOL)

For winning the finals of K.O Nights! A dance competition.
I just watched his "battle" videos, so sad why are we not
inside in the-one-of-the-day-we-went, I think is the one
before Quarterfinals or Semi? I dont know luh! HAHA
We were sitting quite infront hor. So anyway congrats,
but dont be too proud and make ur head bigger when it is
already quite BIG PHYSICALLY. LOL

Something to cheer me on.

2009-06-25T01:08:00.000-07:00

Read the title, duhhh. (LOL)

Something to cheer me on, self proclaimed. And my
post title is copied from the person who uploaded this video.
LOL Andrew De Torres is damn cute at the beginning and end!
He said "2 fucking am in the morning, be grateful!" HAHA
I know this video is some time ago but I still like it.

Good Game.

2009-06-22T14:38:00.000-07:00

Who Killed Mr. Smith?

"Mr Smith was found dead with his throat
slitted with a sharp object. Investigation
pointed to a crystal ornament. Further
investigated revealed finger prints belonging
to four persons namely, James, Clara, Thomas
and Peter."

Awesome, I am one of the suspects who
"murdered" him! -.- Hahahaha anyway its an
assignment for my AE&E.

Lyrics yo!

2009-06-20T01:27:00.000-07:00

THE SCENE AESTHETICS.

Deep inside of your heart,
there is a weight that still needs to be lifted.
Cover it up, but the pain never stops
sometimes i wish that you'd just listen.

Deep inside of yourself,
there is a soul starving for some affection,
been waiting for years and the time passes by.
All you ever wanted was to fit in.

So i wrote you this song,
i hope that you like it'
Cause you light up my life
and i know you can fight this
you're the most beautiful girl in the world
and i wanted you to know.

Constantly waiting for life, starving for love to surround it.

If you only looked right by your side,
you'd find that it never had left you.
You've been through so much and seen so many things
through your eyes and i wish you could just see.
if it were up to me i would construct a key to your heart
and find love and set you free.

<3

Summary

2009-06-18T02:06:00.000-07:00

A Summary.

Monday - Class outing to Sentosa, Pizzahut, Arcade,
Watched an unwilling movie; Land Of The
Lost or Land Of Lost. Whichever it is.

Tuesday - Studyed at Library and to 1.80 chicken rice.
Another unwilling movie; Drag Me To Hell. Its a
fucking lame show, very gruesome scenes. Then
chilled at DTE with I-z(LOL), din, idris, leong.

Wednesday - Wait, let me think. Ohhhh...Played Tennis
at Leong house, the weather was damn hot!! But
its good cause we can suntan. LOL Then went
to Kuek cous birthday Barberque at Pasir Ris Park
People's Association and played taidi, drinking game(!)
Damn funny I remembered we got alot of rules!
Speak chinese only, cannot laugh, cannot point,
cannot say "drink", cannot scold vulgarities, cannot
say "okay" and "huh", cannot say "you, me and him/her"
Retarded. LOL

Thursday(today) - Shopping with my mom and aunt at
vivo and meet the rest also at vivo LOL. Went down to
85(wah 85 sia) Hahahaha no luh Bedok the hawker
centre, 85, to meet Wendi and Chow2 finally!

Friday(tomorrow) - Do MIP project. Study. Bye/

Random or what!

2009-06-16T01:54:00.000-07:00

I am not in love,
This is not my heart.

Walau, I am sending my kids next time to play soccer
overseas and be like cristiano ronaldo. Just by kicking
BALLZ, they can live like Kings!! Their one week pay is
more than 9 out of 10 people's savings, lucky bastards.
We have to slog our butts out.

BROOZE!

2009-06-07T01:33:00.000-07:00

12 Things You Didnt Know About Alcohol!

1) It damages your long term memory!

2) There is no cure for a hangover!!

3) BEWARE : It makes you fat!!!

4) It's more addictive than you think.
When you consume alcohol, your brain releases
dopamine, which makes you feel satisfied.
It also produces endorphins, a natural painkiller,
which scientists also think is responsible for
teaching the brain to crave.

5) It destroys your looks!!!
It dehydrates you leaving you with dry skin,
dilates the blood vessels giving you ugly red
veins close to the skin and inflames the blood
vessels in your eyes making you look like an
escaped convict.
HI MAS SELAMAT!

6) It can make mental health problems worse

7) It causes tunnel vision.
Dont drink and drive!

8) It can lead to diabetes!

9) It can cause man-boobs!!!
Shiyun, becareful....

10) It is a leading cause of cancer!
women who drink too much are at greater risk
of breast cancer.

11) It takes 30units to knock you out.
the equivalent of about 12 pints of strong lager,
you would have to be superhuman to still be on
your feet. If you are stupid enough to drink this
much, you are likely to fall unconscious and put
yourself at serious risk of being sick and suffocating
on your own vomit.

12)Last important point - It affects you more when
you are older!

Hahahahahha drink luh, drink more!

Charity Video

2009-06-06T01:43:00.000-07:00

ONOW VIDEO

Our group CIP video, damn funny.
The editing is quite weird, I dont know why.
Hahahaha but I still like it.

Facebook.

2009-06-04T21:56:00.000-07:00

FB.

I finally joined the Facebook craze! But I wasnt the
one creating it, thanks to Leong. Hahaha I am damn lazy luh.
Add me up people!! This is so pathetic, I only got 17 friends
currently.During the MIP lesson today, we were watching the
trailer of New Moon and Harry Potter! lol And also watched a
few parts of twilight.(yes I havent read or watch it yet)
Tomorrow I am gonna get more movies from benjiamin.Yay!

Shen Ri Kuai Le

2009-05-31T13:46:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 81st BELATED BIRTHDAY GRACE!!(LOL)

I think this pic resemble Grace. HAHAHAHA

I thought grace's b'day was on 31st May :x
Photographs with Leong, shiyun new cam seh and grace
herself. Finally had a long and good sleep yesterday
night, damn shiok! And I havent touch on any work yet.
-.-

28th May 2009

2009-05-27T00:44:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary, ( I always spelt "dairy" )

Its 12:38AM and I just came home from prata session.
And now I am going tostart on my homeworksss(mind the 's') that
is going to be passed up tomorrow.Lets see, theres AE&E tutorial
and questions!, copy APChem Test Ans, MIP tutorial. Fuck, great!
Lucky theres no practical for me in the morning ^^ I hope to finish
my work at 3am later...